Friday, December 10, 2010

So far, so good!

due date: March 27th


Well, we are officially starting our 26th week on Sunday! 6 months and 2 weeks...and Mama is feeling the stretch!

So far, I have not sustained any stretch mark damage. I think my perpetual fear of them and the constant vigilant use of vitamin E capsules as part of my supplemental diet has been my saving grace thus far. I heard about this trick years ago and always kept it in the back of my mind so that I could avoid those nasty little confidence squashers.

I made a trip to Target to try to find a pair of pants that fit me...it has been very uncomfortable to try and manage the size small and medium skinnies I once wore with such ease. It was a difficult day already, due to some financial stress from Husband...but then I saw myself in the mirror in the dressing rooms. Granted, I have still been squeezing myself into the underwear I wore pre pregnancy...and not only do they not fit, they squeeze and pinch my lower half into a sausage-esque nightmare. AND the lighting was totally wrong...

I guess the kicker was that the pair of clearance pants I decided on were a size 9. Looking at my body in those mirrors was horrifying. Perhaps I am just a bit silly when I am depressed...however I have never been above a size 7...EVER! I can handle the measurements growing. I can handle being above 130 pounds...but for some reason the size on those pants, and the shape of my hiney in those mirrors really shattered some opinion I thought I had of myself.

Thankfully my mirrors at home do not cast such an unflattering appearance on my hind quarters...and I know that the extra weight will melt away after my little Runa is here. I am also blessed to have everyone I know tell me how beautiful they think I look for being pregnant and that I ought to be pregnancy modeling. I rather wish I could keep the fuller look in my face, particularly around the bridge of my nose and in my cheeks.


I realize that this is a neccessary process, but when you can't imagine what being heavier than 127 pounds is like, the physical changes can be quite surprising. I am blessed to have supportive friends and family, and a husband who still can't keep his hands off me from morning til night!

If anyone can take anything from this, I would hope it be that no matter how fat or scary you may feel due to your pregnancy, you are not alone! No matter how big or small you look, your baby is more important...take it as a lesson in humility, and learn to love your new lumps and think about how you plan to schedule mommy time to burn those buns back into their proper shape!! I'm day dreaming about breast feeding and brisk spring walks in our gorgeous stroller given to us by our mid wife. ^_^

Bring it on Runa! We want you as big and healthy and lively as possible! I'm sure you are worth every scar, scary mirror moment, and more!

<3